"As this much of a disaster? Just this once." Well, maybe disregarding the conversation where they'd actually broken up for good. That had been equally painful, but not as combustive. And she was doing her best to keep her voice very, very level, now. Like that would protect her, somehow, even when she was honest. "But thematically, almost every time we talk. Just with less crying."

Speaking of which, past Natalie was still doing that, and it made it hard for her to talk. "I just don't want you to go."

And maybe that was the reason. She didn't want to be left alone.